The truth's apparent.

When you can lose yourself so much that your old life isn't even in grasp anymore, you know your a changed person. And while sometimes that change is good and welcomed, other times it's just not. We can't decide who you change into, so if it's better or worse is your choice.
The fact that you've changed is like pouring peroxide on a wound. It stings at first, but in time it becomes normal. I become used to it.

It takes a lot for me to realize that I've probably been the peroxide on someone else's wound.

I want to feel safe in someone's arms.
I want to find someone who really means something.

Follow the crystal air.

Quit being so sheltered and experience life. I wish for one day I could wear someone elses shoes and walk through life with a completely different view on it all.
I want to put you on the hot seat and see how you like it for a change. Pick apart your thoughts and your mind. I want to see what I can take from it, maybe I'll walk away one day smarter.

I'm sick of having trust issues, I wish I could figure myself out enough to know why.
Some days I put too much trust, heart, and soul in something and others I'll put hardly any in.
I've come to understand that I am honestly sick of myself. I can't deal with the lies and the secrets that I'm keeping confined.

I can't wait until these get out on the town.
Only one person has the key to my mind. I wonder if I've met them yet.

Here's a toast.

Nothing can beat denial.
Denial is one sneaky motherfucker. Denial has us all on puppet strings and we're putting on a show tonight.
Deny that you didn't cheat on that last History exam. Deny that you don't really love the one that loves you. And deny that really do love that one mainstream pop band.
There's no way around it.
I deny my true life and true self each day.
I'm lying my way out of life, and beLIEve me, I'm keeping fucking score.

Busted thoughts.

City lights guide us home on a long journey on a dark road.
But I can't help but wonder what it is guiding us throught the years of our life.
I want to go to every corner of the earth just to ask all fo you.
I want to know what makes you think, find out how you work, expose all of your lies and see what truths I can find within.

I want to live a life that no one else has seen before.

We chose the king.

We breathe gold like oxygen and add constant value to our life styles. Never take for granted what has been put in front of you, it's a resource given to you for a reason.
Some days I want to rip myself open and see what pours out.
I want to bleed to see what it feels like.
I want to be new again.

Golden lies and silver truth.
I picked fucking gold. But I'm not so sure it was worth it.

What decision did you make?

Call me a name.

I'm quite sick of apprehension and uncertainty.
Over it and on to something new.

I really wish I could just make a living off of being with friends. My favourites are the one's I can't see all day.
Not being overwhelmed with their presence in my life each day, but still managing to keep close.
Living without actually living has never been easier.

Wisdom; I wish I had some of it.
Being as young as I am, I wish I had more experience.
I wish and I wish.Hope and hope.
It's all up to fate now.

You can try to change things all you like, but initiative is helpful to an extent.
There are things at your fingertips and there are some things so far out of reach no one even knows that they're there.

Change is all the rage in 2007.
Fit in, it's all we ever want.

Kill me with words.

Words can pierce a heart like a bullet passes through skin.
Shout your most important words to the world, with no strings attatched. Keep thinking and don't ever stop.

I want to stare out of a window for the rest of my life.